Friday

So it's the end of a busy week. I've had my sister and 3 French almost teenagers staying on and off. They have been glued to their DS's and giggling up until 11pm at night with the ipad, god knows what they're watching/playing. My sister managed to get them to read Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain for half an hour in the morning until it's time for breakfast/another trip to Sainsburys.
Kalani has enjoyed their stay so much, you can see the little cogs going in his facial expressions as he learns sooo much from them. He says all their names, Tarka, Oscar, Caeser and gives them kisses one after the other. We will miss them. One highlight was selling Oscar's plastic figuerines/pokemon and dinosaurs at Stoneham park on a cold Weds morning...they made £9 in all which was great, such good little entrepreneurs.
kalani also managed to sit on his potty in front of the TV this morning and I couldn't believe it but he actually used it !!! so we are on our way with potty training (he's still only 23 months but i'm guessing it's time).
I took him to "Pop of the tots" this week at the Holland Road Church in Hove, monday 9am til 9.30am or 10am til 10.30am (busier class) and he loves it there , so glad we made the effort to get back to doing that. I've also got onto to a waiting list for "Aardvarks" at Westoes for Tuesdays 9.45am or 10.45am for a children's music class that is run by a charming American lady Emily. Can't wait to try it.
I'm still looking for work to compliment our lives and let me stay home with Lani, nothing yet but i have my feelers out there. It is hard at times as I don't want to lose touch with the world of 'work' and never get back in but i also want to absorb my son and enjoy him every moment. I do have  a problem with being stuck to my laptop though and my phone which i have to put down every now and then and 'be in the moment' with my son. V funny link to this very subject on the Guardian this morning :
http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/video/2012/nov/08/david-mitchell-soapbox-living-moment-video

i remember watching Mulholland Drive and feeling v confused at the end and wanting to know why the hell there actually wasn't an ending it just stopped....so thus ruining the the enjoyment of the film in hindsight. i hope that in my own life all this leads to something worthwhile as sometimes the actual being in moment can be excruciating. what with losing my job, my baby daddy leaving next week, not getting on or not speaking to various members of my close family and friends and most of all still mourning the death of my sister. All this and more helps to give me anxiety on a daily basis. This was alleviated somewhat last night by enjoying the malaise of a twentysomething graduate in "Tiny Furniture", Lena Dunham is the new voice of this younger generation who have really not much to look forward to. But they seem to do a pretty good job of making sense of their own world/friendships and what they want to do with themselves that i applaud her for her insightful portrayal of her not always perfect life (albeit from very priviledged bohemian successful New York upper east side).
TV always saves us mothers from the brink !!!!